The Struggle Is Real

I didn’t grow up in church. My mother taught me the Lord’s prayer and referred to GOD as “the man upstairs”! When I was younger I always had a sense of God’s presence, especially, when I was alone. I ‘d talk with God and I felt a sense of peace. My mother didn’t allow you to ask “why”. Why do I have to go? Why do I have to do this or do that? I’d ask anyway and she ‘d say “because I said so” and that would be the end of that. We were Christians and there were no other options.  Over the years I’d meet people who shared their Christian faith.

Freshman Year

During my freshman year of college, I had a roommate that really took the time to answer my “why” questions about God.  She held bible study in our campus apartment. I was usually up drinking all night and would wake up in the evening while she was having bible study. She’d teach her lessons and I’d listen while I was preparing to go out to another night of drinking!  Most of the members of her bible study were shocked that she even knew me. We were so opposite, and they all knew about my shenanigans!  She was young and on fire for God, she’d sit down with me and share the gospel whether I welcomed it or not. She answered most question I had about salvation, but after she’d answer one I had another. My mother planted the seed and watered it! This was part of my journey on my road to redemption.  I attended church with her but that was about it I didn’t accept Jesus as my savior right away…I had more questions! However, over time I received Jesus as my Lord and Savior, attended church, shared my faith etc., etc.!


A few years ago, I self-published a book “Your 14 Day Journal to Personal Freedom”.  This book is intended for women who lost their way and or need to reconnect with God. Now, here I am 37 and I’m one of “the women”. In the words of Alanis Morrissette (f.y.i she played God in the movie Dogma) … isn’t that ironic? The struggle is real!  I feel that young girl again, anxious, curious and wanting to know more, now my questions are more complex. I will continue to do what I’ve always known to do…sit alone and talk with God. My journey continues, and I know that this is part of my purpose.

If there is something in your life that you want to end…end it and move on and if there is something that you want to begin now is the time to do so.


Until next time…



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